The last few days in Germany were great, but I found myself being extremely sad. I loved my life in Germany. I mean, I loved my job, I love my colleague Airwrecka, I love my friends, I loved doing Lia Sophia, I love my school and most importantly my marriage is great…the only real thing missing was family. BUT…Although I left my hotel with a heavy heart and tears in my eyes, I was quickly snapped back into Johana mode when the stewartess on my flight was unhelpful and showed a lack of empathy for our situation. By situation I mean, Jaime and I were overly exhausted and we not only had to look out for ourselves, but also for our dog Morrison (um, on that note: Parents kudos to you when traveling with a baby!!! I applaud you) in addition to carry-on bags, keeping passports & airline tickets, going through customs, changing planes and departing with only 2 hours of sleep. (In addition to this, Where does anyone get the impression that moving from overseas just consists of us getting on a plane?)
Looking back at my time spent in Germany, I know I’ve grown up and I am not the same person as when I first left. I’ve made tons of friends from all over Europe; I’ve seen every country I initially left America wanting to see (AND I LOVED THEM ALL); I’ve stepped out of my comfort zone with the language barrier; I finished my undergrad and did what I considered “The Impossible” by getting into Grad School; I’ve lost a lot of friends; I’ve fallen in love with art, street artists, and homeless musicians; I’ve been in a fight on a German drunken train coming back from Oktoberfest; I’ve traveled alone; I’ve traveled in company of a ton of dudes and I was inspired to begin this blog.
SO…This is where i’m at: I’m 30; i’m unemployed; i’m a grad student; Lia Sophia is closing it’s doors at the end of the year and i’m back in California. After living overseas for 6 years, I some how never found a way to imagine what my life would be like back here. I feel more lost than ever (not just mentally, but physically). I am easily confused with so many vehicles, my native tongue suddenly sounds foreign to me and honestly the food & beer taste a little funny and not natural…but damn, it’s really good to be around Jaime and my family!